Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Invisible

Dhut..ajkal kichui bhalo lage na. jodio ei kothata ami protidin niyom kore ek baar boli, aar tar sathe porer line e boli "baRi jabo".... sutorang ami dhorei niyechi keu i amay seriously ney na. mane ei je amar bhalo lagche na, tate kar ki? khNoj niye dekhechi, sobar i bhalo na lagar bohuut karon ache. karur research er tikto obhiggota, to karur boyfriend er shonge aNri, to keu club politics niye matha gorom kore ghurche...sobai byasto, sobai dukhi. aajkal sobai "hello" bole emon bhabe, dekhle pitti ulte ashe. aar sob theke kharap khobor, jokhon tara amay tader mon kharap korar justification dite ashe, amar mathay cholte thake, "uff abar shuru holo nake kanda, mor ge ja, amar ki?" khub i dukkher sathe sottyi kotha ta bollaam. kintu sottyi bollam.

tai thik korechi karur shonge kotha bolbo na. sutorang ami ekhon"invisible".

aajke campus e keu asheni. keu mane, oi 2-3 jon bondhu-bandhob-bandhobi jara ache. to khete khete besh ekta chinta korar somoy paoa gyalo. onek bhablam, janlar bairer brishti, neeche gaRir chole jaoa, ebong undergrad der dhupdhap haNta oboggya kore. kyano, ajker ultra connectivity r juge, kotha bolar, kotha bojhar karur kono lok nei?

onek, na onek na, ei minute 10 ek por, bujhlam gondogol ta kothay. kichudin aage A, S'r somporke bollo "S khub bhalo, ami ja boli sob kotha shone". besh. N bollo, "C er moto bondhu hoy na, amar sob photo like kore". bojha gyalo. M bollo, "B ta lokkhi meye, or moto amay keu bojhe na". sobai bhalo, sobai anupom, jotokkhon tara amar photo, amar kotha, amar chinta, amar poRte thaka chul ebong baRte thaka ojon ke ekbakkye somorthon korche. jotokkhon she amar hyan te hyan melabe, she amar prio bondhu, amar chhayasongi, amar jokher dhon. je din se amar birudhdhe daRiye, tar nijer mot prokashe ichchuk hoye othar dushahosh korbe, se din se amar keu noy. take dekhe mukh ghorate amar 1 din er beshi lagbe na, samnasamni poRle just ekta boka boka hashi, aar kromagoto prarthona kore jaoa je she amar choritrer je kalo onGsho tuku jene gyache, ta jyano tar kachei siimaboddho thake.

eta onek kaal holoi bujhe gechi. tai kalo bhaag ta amar moner modhhei roye jaye. sobaike sref ghosha maja, oti ujjol, oporaNsho tuku dyakhai. din ke din kalo amar moddhe joma hochhe. bhablam, lukiyei jokhon rakhbo, bhalobhabei lukoi. aajkal raag korina, jhogRa korina, kotha katakati korina. kono jhamelate i ami nei. jhamela-walader bondhu thake na. bondhu na thaka ta bipojjonok.



4 comments:

Kuntala said...

amar keno jani drirho bishwas, je ami jodi sobuj hoyeo bose thaki, keu amar sathe kotha bolbena. already bondhu nei bole dukkhe achhi, eita jodi hoy (ebong hobei), ar matha tule dNaRate parbo na. tai michhimichhi emon bhab kori jeno kotha na bolata amar decision.....tai ami horbokhot invisible.

bondhu na thakata somosya, abar ke jane somadhan-o hoyto. ar sumana,(sotorkiikoroN: gyaan shuru hochchhe) tumi ekhono aneeeeeeeeek chhoto, tomar bondhu howar boyos jayni. ekta duto bhishoN bhalo bondhu thakle ar 'like'-wala der bondhu bhabteo ichche korbe na.

lekhata khub jhorjhore hoyechhe. mone hochchilo tumi amar samne bose kotha bolchho. anyo karor ki mot janina, ami eta dekhle lekhok-ke anek nombor di mone mone. tomakeo dilam. aro ghono ghono lekho Sumana. Please?

sumana said...

Kuntala di, likhte ichche to kore, kintu ki likhbo bhebe pai na. kintu tumi jokhon bolle, nischoi likhbo :)

etto boRo comment asha korini. dekhe khub bhalo laglo. ekta duto bhalo bondhu ache,odeshe. kintu ei deshe shotti bondhu ache ki na, thakleo seta kon contract e, majhe majhe bujhina...tai kharap lage. i hope bhoy ta omulok...

Kuntala said...

are profile chhobita phataphati hoyechhe to!

Atreyee said...

i can understand! :(